Full Of Surprises
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Sunday, October 19, 2008
started to rot at home... haiix... hey frens ~ .. im back to posting.. n kip muai blog updated... lets talk abt ... hmms... okaes.. i dunno ... haiix.. juz read it if u wan..
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okaes.. i still cant get him out of my head.... why why why .... i hav being wondering for daes... is being 12 daes since we ever seperated... i still cant let him go ... somebody help me ... why cant i juz forget abt himm ... why ... arghxz... hate myself alot... why cant he juz get out of maii brain ,, my mind... sae de truth .. i was abt to fgt him... but juz some shock or wadever ... his back to my mind... is so so so difficult to get him out of my mind.. i try ways to, like , avoiding him in sku ... trying to walk away every moment i see him.. juz to fgt those moments ... but ... wad ever i do... he still stays in my mind.... i tried almost everything to fgt him ... even "hypnotize" myself to fgt him... dun ask how i do .. i juz did it ... im getting more n more crazier ... i guess... i did alot of stupid things to fgt him ... but all failed... looking at the mirror , staring at it for long time n kip repeating :"forget abt him, forget abt those moments,all the things we did tgt , get them out of my head" "fgt abt him, fgt abt lester, fgt all those happy or sad moments" "memories of him n me .. the times we spent tgt , let me fgt all those pain, all those sores , all those hurts, cuts, and all those happy moments, joy,fun,laughter, love,hatred, i dun wan to rmb all this things, let me fgt abt all his doings and him." this lines were repeated . everynite before bed... looking into the mirror... juz wanna fgt him... "his not worth for me to remember, fgt him wud be de best cure ever" " leave me , will u ... im trying to fgt u , pls..." all this works... till i met him agn during the meeting to china... it all came back ... ... ... it could sound so dramatic, but is true... de met between me n him , causes all the memories to be gain , reformed or sth,they gushed into maii brain.. and i couldnot stop it... is juz rushed to be in .... and no matter wad i do... is still coming back,., someone help me ... pls pls pls ...
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juz as i expected... his back to his "life" . the one before i met him... u shud noe wad im toking.... as kathryn had said,.. : "U cant get over a hongster ?" ,, this words ... i being reminding myself. why cant i get over him... his still the same... the wae he is ...
a hongster,
alwaes a hongster,
no matter wad ...
u r still a hongster...
why did i trust u ,,
wad makes me trust u
wad makes me think tat u wud change becuz of me ?
u r still de same.. no matter wad .. u wun change for the sake of someone..
i cant believe i trusted u... and once agn, u broke it...
the promise u made, came in peace... and now .. its broken into pieces...
End Off @ 4:15 PM
started to rot at home... haiix... hey frens ~ .. im back to posting.. n kip muai blog updated... lets talk abt ... hmms... okaes.. i dunno ... haiix.. juz read it if u wan..
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okaes.. i still cant get him out of my head.... why why why .... i hav being wondering for daes... is being 12 daes since we ever seperated... i still cant let him go ... somebody help me ... why cant i juz forget abt himm ... why ... arghxz... hate myself alot... why cant he juz get out of maii brain ,, my mind... sae de truth .. i was abt to fgt him... but juz some shock or wadever ... his back to my mind... is so so so difficult to get him out of my mind.. i try ways to, like , avoiding him in sku ... trying to walk away every moment i see him.. juz to fgt those moments ... but ... wad ever i do... he still stays in my mind.... i tried almost everything to fgt him ... even "hypnotize" myself to fgt him... dun ask how i do .. i juz did it ... im getting more n more crazier ... i guess... i did alot of stupid things to fgt him ... but all failed... looking at the mirror , staring at it for long time n kip repeating :"forget abt him, forget abt those moments,all the things we did tgt , get them out of my head" "fgt abt him, fgt abt lester, fgt all those happy or sad moments" "memories of him n me .. the times we spent tgt , let me fgt all those pain, all those sores , all those hurts, cuts, and all those happy moments, joy,fun,laughter, love,hatred, i dun wan to rmb all this things, let me fgt abt all his doings and him." this lines were repeated . everynite before bed... looking into the mirror... juz wanna fgt him... "his not worth for me to remember, fgt him wud be de best cure ever" " leave me , will u ... im trying to fgt u , pls..." all this works... till i met him agn during the meeting to china... it all came back ... ... ... it could sound so dramatic, but is true... de met between me n him , causes all the memories to be gain , reformed or sth,they gushed into maii brain.. and i couldnot stop it... is juz rushed to be in .... and no matter wad i do... is still coming back,., someone help me ... pls pls pls ...
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juz as i expected... his back to his "life" . the one before i met him... u shud noe wad im toking.... as kathryn had said,.. : "U cant get over a hongster ?" ,, this words ... i being reminding myself. why cant i get over him... his still the same... the wae he is ...
a hongster,
alwaes a hongster,
no matter wad ...
u r still a hongster...
why did i trust u ,,
wad makes me trust u
wad makes me think tat u wud change becuz of me ?
u r still de same.. no matter wad .. u wun change for the sake of someone..
i cant believe i trusted u... and once agn, u broke it...
the promise u made, came in peace... and now .. its broken into pieces...
