Wednesday, September 2, 2009


hope u rmb the first night...

hey readers... not really noe wad to post. sths juz happen to be sad..those who noe abt wad happen pls kip it to urself =). those who dunno. dun bother asking around. im juz gonna runt it out kaes? dun mind me being harsh harsh harsh. so yeahx. not comfortable ? dun read =) is an advice.

sth terribly happened.
very terrible. shocking. horrible.
no words describe.
guess. this is th worst i've gotten for my 14 going 15 years in my life.
kaes. might not be so BIG. but, is wad i felt.
to someone. i noe u r reading.
continue if u feel like. and i said. i will be harsh.
so do understand.
I HATE IT!!!
okaes?
wad u sent to me is totally not cool at all.
it onli hurts me more and more.
tats all i noe.
my heart shattered.
but i noe this wud come.
u have changed.
big changes came to u.
u r not who i noe once.
de old adam koh cai ping.
oh GOD!!!
where is de adam koh cai ping i once noe ? wad happen to him?return him to me wud u?Take it as i beg u.return him to me.i cant live without him.and u noe.why are u taking my love ones away.why oh why.wad did i do wrong.why do u have to take him away from me?!! u noe his de one who opened my heart once more from de devil side to the angel side. to the one who don't believe in love and stand up and love him once more. why cant u juz let me love him? and strongly love him with all my heart. instead of letting him be lyk other trees out there who kip on hurting my heart ?? i would be willing to do anything and i mean ANYTHING !! take my life. return the old him. can u fulfill this wish ?? can u ? is alrights if he dun love me anymore. i dun mind. even if he loves others. i am willing to accept the fact. but not this type of punishment. is totally hurting. hurting. hurting. please return de old him. i dun mind leaving him if he gets to be happy agn. i dun mind at all. as long as his happy. i dun mind suffering. i dun mind... and i swear. i dun mind... as long as his happy. i am willing to exchange my life for his happiness. can u juz fulfill this wish ? my lord ?
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crying is all i can do now. trying to concentrate. is difficult. trying to smile. is hard. i guess. sad is my fate... heartbreaks...
this is wad i can sae...

What hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do




a simple yet unfulfilled request...